Prolonged Destiny

2007-11-14T21:27:00.000-08:00

NEW BLOG

Hey guys! Relink me at http://takemeaway180191.blogspot.com

there's some thing wrong with the links over there but i'll fix that ASAP.
Enjoy the holidays people!

last post on this blog

2007-10-22T09:30:00.000-07:00

this is my last post on this blog. i'll be posting my new one as soon as i can. sorry clara! you gotta link me again. anyway today's the day of the start of the end of my life. if you can catch what i'm saying then good for you. if not just pretend that you do. worked for me.

the BIG one's here. yups. AMath paper one. yes i'm not studying anymore not practising questions anymore. i'll just get me more nervous. and too excited too. haiz. Well paper 2 is tomorrow and chemistry is on Wednesday. Friday's Geography. oh joy.... but it't gonna be over soon.... VERY SOON and i'll be free as a bird in the wild amazon... what a comparison...

yups i'm gonna do my new blog new before i tell anyone. can still check this one for anything i'll post on the tagboard though...

oh and about the primary school gathering, DONT call me in the afternoons, i'm having papers most of the time till the 6th of Nov. you guys take care now and best of luck!

2007-10-12T04:44:00.001-07:00

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2007-09-25T23:59:00.000-07:00

ah yes the o's are in 26 days' time. practicals are on the 18th for my school, then four days later is a math the next day is a math paper 2 den after that is english then it is geography den physics den chemistry den ss den sub science mcq then I'LL BE FREE MOTHER FREE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WWWWHHHHEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!! ah wells, life's like this. hope you guys who are reading my blog will like the song playing. it's called Infatuation by Christina Aguilera from her Stripped album.one of the best albums that i've listened to. yups.

hung out with rizal for like three hours.... five to around eight plus.. yeah. told me what was going on in his life and stuff, you can never have a clean conversation with him that's for sure. that's why part of my mind is polluted.

it's the mid autumn festival today! happy mid autumn festival everyone! enjoy your mooncakes and moon bathing.... though i never got to do the moon bathing thing or to carry lanturns in the park... i wish i had someone to do that with me.... ya...

anyway can't wait for o levels to be over, can't wait to dance again, can't wait to get results back, can't wait to start working, can't wait for a lot of things to happen... can't wait to meet up with phing keen and wey keen. haahaa... can't wait to kachao chong aik after my o's.. hahaa... siao liao

but for the present i'm doing my best, working hard etc... sucks but i got no choice if i want good results and my eight hundred bucks to buy a new phone and other stuff...

alright i'll stop here today. will try to blog when i can.

2007-07-09T07:03:00.000-07:00

here i am blogging after two and a half months of not blogging.
so Lilian is being a fucking bitch so i wont try to kiss and make up.
fuck, like that will ever happen.
since no one's reading my blog i can just curse all i want.
but if you out there who's come upon my blog by chance, i'll appreciate it if you 'll just shut about what you have seen.
if you want to cause trouble for me then what can i do to stop you? i've never done anything to whoever you are who's like so evil as to hurt someone you dont even know.
been doing a lot of exam papers lately, like fucking hell a lot lah.
so if you are my friend and you've seen the fucking comments posted by the fucking bitch called Lilian, you'll know why i'm bloody pissed.
i am trying to get help for you and you fucking dont want it. fine lah. just say no, dont have to get so worked up and fuck in my face like that right?
fine i'm a loser. at least i'm not a sore one. bloody idiot so clever lah. fuck lah.
shouldn't be swearing but i can't fucking help it lah. it's fucking annoying.
like you don't get repaid or even appreciated for the good that you are trying to do.

with all the madness that's going on, i got one thing on my mind. i don't know if it is true but i think it's all i have to get me through this fucking shit and all the fucking stress and what shit. ya i'm very vulgar nowadays. the once cheerful and swear-free shina is gone for now lah.... but what the fuck does that Lilian have against me? it's not like i flushed her head down the toilet or humiliate her or fuck in her face on her fucking friendster right? i mean if you wanna fucking ignore me and pretend that i don't exist than just fucking ignore everything that i do lah... bloody bitch....

2007-04-26T03:34:00.000-07:00

no Geraldine my blog is not dead. i just dont have the time to update k?
well i'm gonna do this real quick.
exams are like next week
havent started doing hard core revision
like what the hell chinese o levels are next month
starting to get pretty touchy and pissed off around my bro
only because he made me spend my whole week's allowence
i have to starve today and will be starving tomorrow
shit and ppl expect me to lose weight with all the stress

2007-03-25T06:24:00.000-07:00

the past few days have been going so fast! i can't believe its monday tomorrow already! aww there goes another weekend and we inch another week closer to the o levels and mid year and prelims... whaddahell?

here's my entry for friday and yesterday:

Friday 23 March 2007:
Had guides till 6.40pm, couldn't meet up with bro in the end
Went to Swensen's at Comapass with Mum and Dad and bro for dinner
went home, mapled until like three in the morning

Yesterday, Saturday 24 March 2007:
Slept at 3.30am woke up at 8am to do homework
went for Street Jazz and Hip Hop
Did lyrical Jazz today, instructor Evergreen not gonna teach the next season! sob!
she's moving to the other side of the island!
the lyrical Jazz song was Josh Groban's So She Dances
its so beautiful! the routine was also challenging, but i got it in the end!
then rushed home for tuition with Sean Kor Kor until like 5pm
the rushed like hell for Mr Ng's extra lesson
ate my bee hoon on the way, imagine me walking and eating a container of bee hoon!
finished at 6.55pm, supposed to be 7pm but im not really complaining, so tired!
then at 8pm, went to eat dinner with family without Grandma at the coffee shop behind Sengkang Sec
came back and maple again until midnight

End of entry

so i woke up at 7.45am this morning and went for tuition at 9am-10.30am
after tuition I walked around with Wei Ting
then I went home to have lunch, mee siam from AMK damn nice!
after that we packed to go to SAFRA
before that met up with Uncle Steven, Aunty Claire and Keith and my Grandma from my step-dad's side
they were eating japnese food but i was still stuffed with mee siam so i ordered lime juice
that lime juice clear the last of the phlegm in my throat, thank God
then went to SAFRA, did homework and the dance studio there while my parents practised.
managed to finish the important ones like chemistry and a maths
mapled again at the cyber cafe/arcade for an hour
left for queensway shopping centre,
bro and i had dinner at mac's while parents went around looking for some stuff they wanted to buy
then we drove home after mum stopped my a coffee shop to buy HER and Dad's dinner.
and now i'm blogging!

yay, whatever. im just feeling really lame today.
oh ya i sat on the swing at the playground at SAFRA, it was the most relaxed time i had in weeks.

2007-03-22T00:02:00.000-07:00

wells i havent been doing my homework ya i'm a bad girl ooohh...
i just dont have the habit anymore? ya
but i do try very very hard to do them.... yes i do
haha
anyway been really tired and stuff, didnt go for recess run today as i didnt bring my stuff cause both t shirts are in the washer and still wet... ya thats my excuse and i gotta make up tomorrow and stuff so ya...

Been writing a lot of Westlife lyrics in my new notebook, dunno whats up with that but i feel that their music and their voices really lift my spirit and they have inspired me since i was a little kid, since i was 8 of 9? Yups and i've grown up listening to their songs. But that doesn't been i didnt listen to anything else but them. i grew up listening to the Spice Girls, Westlife, Backstreet Boys, A1, some of the love songs that are on Westlife's Love Album. Songs like All Or Nothing originally by O-town, You Light Up My Life, All Out Of Love by Air Supply and stuff... Yups... But back then i couldnt remember the lyrics to the love songs as i was really really young like maybe i was 3 when i heard all these oldies? yups... but i think Westlife is the only band that I've followed since they made their big break in 2000? That's the year when i found out about them and A1 so a little bit of conflict between them there... i think that Westlife is the best band around now and forever. They have always been really great, whether it was music or being ordinary people. They are humble, they do not have big egos like other bands, they are really down to earth people and that's what i love about them.

Total Eclipse of The Heart

Turnaround, every now and then I get a little bit lonely and you're never coming
round
Turnaround, every now and then I get a little bit tired of listening to the
sound of my tears
Turnaround, every now and then I get a little bit nervous that the best of all
the years have gone by
Turnaround, every now and then I get a little bit terrified and then I see the
look in your eyes
Turnaround bright eyes, every now and then I fall apart
Turnaround bright eyes, every now and then I fall apart

And I need you now tonight
And I need you more than ever
And if you'll only hold me tight
We'll be holding on forever
And we'll only be making it right
Cause we'll never be wrong together
We can take it to the end of the line
Your love is like a shadow on me all of the time (all of the time)
I don't know what to do and I'm always in the dark
We're living in a powder keg and giving off sparks
I really need you tonight
Forever's gonna start tonight
Forever's gonna start tonight

Once upon a time I was falling in love
But now I'm only falling apart
There's nothing I can do
A total eclipse of the heart
Once upon a time there was light in my life
But now there's only love in the dark
Nothing I can do
A total eclipse of the heart

Turnaround, every now and then I get a little bit restless and I dream of
something wild
Turnaround, every now and then I get a little bit helpless and I'm lying like a
child in your arms
Turnaround, every now and then I get a little bit angry and I know I've got to
get out and cry
Turnaround, every now and then I get a little bit terrified but then I see the
look in you eyes
Turnaround bright eyes, every now and then I fall apart
Turnaround bright eyes, every now and then I fall apart

And I need you now tonight
And I need you more than ever
And if you'll only hold me tight
We'll be holding on forever
And we'll only be making it right
Cause we'll never be wrong together
We can take it to the end of the line
Your love is like a shadow on me all of the time (all of the time)
I don't know what to do and I'm always in the dark
We're living in a powder keg and giving off sparks
I really need you tonight
Forever's gonna start tonight
Forever's gonna start tonight

Once upon a time I was falling in love
But now I'm only falling apart
There's nothing I can do
A total eclipse of the heart

A total eclipse of the heart
A total eclipse of the heart
A total eclipse of the heart
A total eclipse of the heart

2007-03-20T03:20:00.001-07:00

so i guess the new guiders are not that bad after all ya i have to have to admit it lah i'm guilty of judging a book by its cover and i'm sorry for it ya i'm sorry i bitched about them they're not so bad after all i just hate the way the scold us yups anyway, midyear is like the end of next month and im slacking away like blogging here and mapling and watching youtube but ya i'll pick up the slack soon enough

2007-03-19T11:43:00.000-07:00

so its like 2.45am and i'm blogging. can't seem to sleep after that long afternoon nap i took until 8.30. got up for tuition and stuff, i was quite impressed with myself though, hehe.

school was fine today. no homework, i only need to go through my social studies powerpoint slides so that i can pass the test on wednesday, technically it would be tomorrow but let's assume that its still Monday k? ya its monday night and tuesday morning.

been mapling quite a bit these days. just leveled up by killing angry ribbon pigs for their ribbons so that i can complete the quest and get exp points. my brother's been mapling a hell lot more than me because he's got no o levels and i do. holy shit next month is mid year already! haven't started studying YET and i dont know when i'll start. i dont feel as motivated as last year and i don't know why. but i gotta start soon, its THE big exam of my life and ya, its gonna suck bad if it ends bad this year. hopefully i'll go out with a big bang in my cca. make myself memoriable to my sec ones so that they remember me for life. hehe.

i'm still head over heels in love with westlife! i cant type properly when i'm thinking of them! haha. i still love love love love love love love love love love love love Mark Feehily!!!!! i dont care what he is i just looooove him sooo much ! love his voice and everything! ahh i'm going nuts!!!!

ya well didnt pick chong aik up today as i was sleeping so peacefully. Ha! the little bugger has to go to school like everyone else tomorrow! hope he manages to stay awake during class! haha! speaking of which, i need to remember to bring my chemistry text instead of physics tomorrow, i get totally mixed up somehow and i dont know why. oh and i need to start running recess runs, dammit. its sooooo boring! i'd rather you put me next to the coke machine, at least i can amuse myself by pressing the buttons.

ah wells, life like this and i'm stuck in westlife and i'm totally nuts about them and i need some one to snap me out of it!

2007-03-15T08:53:00.000-07:00

just finished doing a post on that blog dedicated to cheering Chong Aik on
some people may think that i'm crazy for him because that blog was for him and stuff
but it'll just be damn awkward and weird if we ever got together
i mean we're best buddies and i hope he doesnt read this!
i mean if you are reading this Chong Aik, i think you'll think the same way
hey we're like long time friends since we were nine or ten
ok that sounded like a Westlife song

we had joy we had fun, we had seasons in the sun
but the wine and the song like the seasons have all gone........

okok cheesy old me.
i can't help it if im like hooked onto love songs right?
which sixteen year old girl wouldn't?

maybe i was too harsh on the last entry that i did
i mean as in my words were too harsh
not on anyone but ya you know what i mean?
okok so im in the wrong and i am sorry
but its like sometimes i just dont wanna tell anyone where im going
its just that i wanna be alone kinda thing
and if i'm like somewhere in a shopping mall
there'll be a call from home asking me to buy milk or bread or both
so ya sometimes i just wanna be alone
just to reflect and i dont want anyone to know about it
because that'll just distract me from my thoughts
this may seem as an invalid reason, but hey
that is just how i see it.
if anyone thinks that i'm in the wrong, please tell me
i need to know from my mistakes
also, i need to learn to be a better person for tomorrow

wow i can actually say all these things
i'm amazed myself
i can write better than i can speak
oh ya there's this hilarious vid clip on youtube
type in "RK House" and you'll be laughing your pants off
guaranteed to make you nuts.
ok enough with the nuts, or i'll be a nutcase by the end of this entry

so there's COH tomorrow
and once again
the timing has been changed to fit
the guider's schedule
i mean Miss Lim and Miss Yeo
never called us back for meetings during any of our term breaks
the cca is going to the dogs, honestly
so it has been changed from 2pm to 3pm
all the way until 4.30pm
like we got nothing better to do than come back to school
to watch some *****es pmsing
some of you will know what im saying
let your imagination go wild here...
ya

well i gotta go now, my bro is like so wanting to use the comp
(just acting bimbo)
yucks i hate bimbos, they're all stupid. duh!

btw, Westlife and Avril Lavigne are totally rocking my world right now!

2007-03-14T14:11:00.001-07:00

I know when he's been on your mind That distant look is in your eyes I thought with time you'd realize it's over, over It's not the way I choose to live Bit something somewhere's gotta give As sharing in this relationship gets older, older You know I'd fight for you but how could I fight someone who isn't even there I've had the rest of you now I want the best of you I don't care if that's not fair Cuz I want it all Or nothing at all There's nowhere left to fall When you reach the bottom it's now or never Is it all Or are we just friends Is this how it ends With a simple telephone call You leave me here with nothing at all There are time it seems to me I'm sharing you with memories I feel it in my heart but I don't show it, show it Then there's times you look at me As though I'm all that you cN see Those times I don't believe it's right I know it, know it Don't make me promises baby you never did know how to keep them well I had the rest of you now I want the best of you it's time to show and tell Cuz I want it all Or nothing at all There's nowhere left to fall When you reach the bottom it's now or never Is it all Or are we just friends Is this how it ends With a simple telephone call You leave me here with nothing at all Cuz you and I Could lose it all if you've got no more room No more inside for me in your life Cuz I want it all Or Nothing at all There's nowhere left to fall It's now or never Is it all Or nothing at all When you reach the bottom it's now or never Is it all Or are we just friends Is this how it ends With a simple telephone call You leave me here with nothing Cuz you and I Could lose it all if you've got no more room No more inside for me in your life Cuz I want it all Or nothing at all There's nowhere left to fall It's now or never Is it all Or nothing at all When you reach the bottom it's now or never Is it all Or are we just friends Is this how it ends With a simple telephone call You leave me here with nothing at all

2007-03-14T13:22:00.001-07:00

its like bloody 4am and im blogging. i must be going mad. well i've been an unappreciative and a total bitch to my mum. i only told her that i was gonna send chong aik off when i got there. she got totally pissed cause i didnt tell her beforehand and i probably should have although it was like bloody late i didnt get kidnapped i didnt get raped i didnt get robbed i told my grandma before i left and my mum just called me stupid caused i just could not get the concept of telling her beforehand and like i postponed tuition that night because i had like 4 hours of tuition that idiot afternoon and she said that i postponed tuition because i wanted to send chong aik off like f**king hell i didnt mean it that way so f**k she would've let me go and she made it sound that i didnt appreciate her and i treated her like a fool i mean like i feel like shit when im the last one to know about the bloody plans for the weekends like i didnt feel important when she told me that i was going to watch the competition alone like f**k its alright to shout at me when i tell her something after i done it but i gotta get my heart broken when she tells me that i'll be alone when i'd bloody like to spend the night watching the competition with her f**k its alright not to tell me the reason why she wasnt going to watch but its not f**king alright for me to send a friend off at the airport without tellin her the worst thing is that i've lost the motivation to study cause she called me stupid and maybe i am cause she thinks that i have no moral values well maybe she's right lah whatever im doing maybe just a show i dont know if im dead or if im alive i dont know if i have soul its like ive lost all sense of myself f**k it i think that its common sense that you would want to send a friend off at the airport if they're going to compete overseas like i dont have feelings i hated stuffing all the bloody chicken rice and soup and everything down my throat at dinner lucky she wasnt there so what if you cooked dinner for me grandma cooks dinner for us most of the time and she cleans the house most of the time and she buys us food most of the time f**k i hate this yes shina has no moral values shina is stupid cause she doesnt get the concept of telling her mum that she's going out beforehand fine fine fine fine fine fine like f**k it whatever

2007-03-12T05:15:00.001-07:00

here i am doing another entry just before its my turn to have chinese tuition.
um... today was pretty fruitful.
i went to school for extra lessons even though it was term break, painted part of my patrol flag, helped paint the banner for campfire that is happening at the end of the month and yeah, that's about it pretty much.
came home at six thirty, around there i think.
oh yeah i gotta tell you guys about the IDSF competition i went to watch last night.
Chong Aik was competiting so I HAD to watch it. Even though my step dad was a total party pooper and my mum couldn't watch it, she gave me one of the tickets that Aunty Meethoo reserved for her so that i could watch with Marion Jie Jie.
It has been so long since I've actually seen like everyone from studio. Those who just joined when I stopped are still there, those who weren't there came back and ya know, be there. Haha.
Talked to Aunty Gladys and Uncle Shawn. I think that they are nice people, I mean they have always been so patient with me. When I was still dancing, they were so every patient to teach me until I got the steps and timings correct. They put in extra effort to train me, at least that is how I feel about them.
Other than my mum, Uncle Shawn and Aunty Gladys have unknowingly groomed me to be who I am today. Only now that I realized that they're teachings, be it dancing or just talking to us, was to equip me with most of the life skills that I have today. I cannot thank them enough. Uncle Shawn was so nice, he asked about mum, so did Aunty Gladys, they both asked if she was happy, they both sent their best regards to her.
I didn't know that they cared about (yes I'm a little slow in details) for her even after she had left.

Saw a lot of old friends, Elrond, Peter, Gin Gin, Priscilla, Kelvin, Rossane, of course Chong Aik and Riane, saw Aunty Meethoo and Uncle Michael (duh!), Clarissa my senior and Isabelle Tay (i finally caught hold of her after 9.30pm!). I think that's about all. There may be a few faces that I can't put names to but ya. Almost everyone asked about Mum and how she was doing and stuff. It was a great thing to spent my Sunday night on. Other than the fact that I forgot to do my work, it was great. I shouted myself hoarse, because my throat hurts today. I have slight cough from the shouting and a sore throat. And I STILL ate macs today. I gotta stop that bad habit of fast food.

Well I think that I should be going now. Not really up to having tuition today, don't feel like talking much, throat's really dry. LIM CHONG AIK YOU OWE ME ONE!!!! Ya, I was his cheerleading squad last night, shouted as loud as I could. =D I am such a good friend. Hehe. No, seriously, he owes me one. Better get a little something for me when you go to Japan tomorrow eh?

Haha. See ya.

talking cock in parliament

2007-03-10T00:36:00.000-08:00

We Live In Singapura

Sang Nila, Utama
Saw a lion, alamak
Name the village Singapura, then run very far

Years later, ang mor came
Stamford Raffles was his name
Posed for statues very nice, we kenna colonize
(instru)

Singapura very strong
Big guns all, pointing wrong
Japanese, came on bikes, invade us from our backside
War is over, ang mor back
Singaporeans no respect
Commies come, make a fuss,
Singapore independance!

CHORUS
I live in Singapura
It’s not perfect living
But at least it’s interesting
I live in Singapura
Though it’s kind of crazy
We win other country

David Marshall, Lim Yew Hock
National Anthem starts to rock
Yusof Ishak the big man, guess who’s PM?

Malaysia say, come join me
Two of us be same country
Then not happy, Then make PM cry

PM Lee lead country
Build jurong and HDB
Made the country clean and green, opposition cannot win
JB Jeya no more funds,
Chee Soon Juan won’t eat his buns
Lim How Doong, what a goon,
‘Don’t talk cock’ in parliament

CHORUS
I live in Singapura
It’s not perfect living
But at least it’s interesting
I live in Singapura
Though its kind of crazy
We win other country

Kick out from Malaysia Cup
Michael Faye pain in the butt
S-League, Tea Dancing,
Ah Bengs love Modern Talking
McDonalds Hello Kitty
Everyone drink Bubble tea
Crushing cockroach Margaret Chan,
James Lye is VR Man
(instru)

Reclaimation, Tuas Causeway
Malaysian water buay ho sei
Mahathir’s friend Datuk Anwar,
Mathathir says he’s chow Ah Qua
NDP, aunties rush
Everyone it’s fun to flush
Bubble gums are all banned, ask your friends buy from thailand

CHORUS
I live in Singapura
It’s not perfect living
But at least it’s interesting
I live in Singapura
Though its kind of crazy
We win other country

Driving car, not funny
Bid on cars with C-O-E
E-R-P, Road Tax, PARF until I want to barf
Why our locals have to pay?
Foreign talent are okay
Housing estate upgradeby contractors who go pok kai

IMF must follow
Want to protest, go indoors
L-R-T not so fast
Newater they laugh at us

I live in Singapura
It’s not perfect living
But at least it’s in-teresting
I live in Singapura
Though its kind of crazy
We win other country

Baby bonus, maid levy
Singtel Shares give out for free
Jack Neo, Kit Chan, sexy pastor Ho Yeow Sun
Beckham parties with models
Has affair but no one knows
S-league, go world cup, can come true if they don’t suck

Mahathir then Abdullah
Bar top dancing at the bars
Budget airlines start to pak
Stop speaking Singlish lah

Gay is okay says PM
SM Lee becomes MM
PM Lee the same name, here we go all over again.

WE LIVE IN SINGAPURA!

2007-02-25T05:21:00.000-08:00

Well I think that I've got the Westlife fever again!
I'm gonna buy their Turnaround album, Allow Us to Be Frank album, Face to Face album
and their latest The Rose album... its gonna be a great year for me!
Haha, beside the stress sorta getting to my head, I'm gonna have a lot easier time
studying for Os when I've got Westlife's albums.
After buying the four albums mentioned above, I'm gonna do my best and
Look for their very very very first album released in 1999 with
Swear It Again, Fool Again, Flying Without Wings etc...

I'm gonna be so happy when I've collect all 8 albums and when I go to their
next concert in Singapore and I hope that they will have one cause by then
I'll be able to afford the hundered over buck ticket cause I'm gonna work
my butt off after O's, just to be prepared. So when they say that
Westlife's concert tickets go on sale today, I and fly over there like a turbo jet plane
and be the first kiasu to get the ticket. haha. Yups, I've officially got the Westlife fever again.
Been watching their interviews, their concert in South Korea, music videos and
setting their albums on replay the last few nights and days. Well whatever, I just need their voices to help me calm down and to raise my soul so that I feel better even when things to
wrong.

Here is one of my favourite songs from their Face To Face Album:

Amazing

It's like a storm against the window
Follow me around just like a shadow
I'll swim a never-ending ocean
Until you bring back your devotion

It's like I live a thousand lifetimes
Still looking for the one that feels right
See, moving on just isn't working
You lit the fire that I'm burning

[Chorus]
And all I can do is protect it
A life for the sake of my pride
While all the others had me thinking we could be more than just amazng

I guess I'm holding on to my faith
A solid hope I'm heading your way
And crawling over is so tempting
We could be more than just amazing

[Chorus]
And all I can do is protect it
A life for the sake of my pride
While all the others had me thinking
We could be more than just amazing

[Bridge]
I couldn't see it
I must have believed a lie
If I admit it would you let me make it right
Is it all gone
Oh no

[Chorus]
We could be more than just
We could be more than just amazing
And all I can do is protect it
A life for the sake of my pride
And all the others had me thinking
We could be more than just amazing

[Chorus]And all I can do is protect it
A life for the sake of my pride
While all the others had me thinking
straight to the point of what I'm feeling
Oh we could be more than just amazing

2007-02-06T23:02:00.000-08:00

I actually did an entry a few days ago way after the fourth but it just didnt appear! But yeah...

So now I'm back to just type my heart out.

Just finished chinese tuition, I find that I've learnt something new like after every 2 hour session which are like super tiring and tedious because you gotta think a lot. Ya he makes you think A LOT. About life, people, reasoning and like ya know, deep stuff.

Some people are just so shallow, I can't help but feel sorry for their parents that they've got children like these. Also some people are just oh so retarded. And they are supposed to be the most matured in the school!

Like wth is happening to the world these days? I hope that some people would stop and think about what they are doing with their life. I mean there's more to life than being an idiot and an asshole to your friends and the people around you right?

Recently, a teacher had to take a month's unpaid leave because most people in her form class were just giving her too much stress. How? Just by poking fun at her and being unreasonable irritating and childish. And loud not to mention. I just hope that the teacher is alright, I mean she just got married and this kinda shit sorta spoils the honeymoon period she was supposed to enjoy ya know?

Anyway, forget about all that unhappy stuff. Actually I've got nothing happy to say. Except that I'm really enjoying the Street Jazz and Hip Hop classes at the CC every Saturday. Its such an eye-opener, the Street Jazz class. The instructor said that we will also be doing a variety of Jazz like Lyrical Jazz and Broadway, I'm soooo excited! Haha I'm going bonkers!

Anyway I think I'll stop here today. Its late and I wanna sleep. Night!

2007-02-04T02:26:00.000-08:00

If you wanna ask me why do I keep changing my blogskin? Well don't because I myself do not know why I have been changing it on a regular basis lately. Probably its my mood... Yups...
I did this skin myself like three years ago???!!!!! Ya its been that long... I've forgotten all of my html codings and stuff... gotta go back and study it again... waste of time!
But hey I feel like making blogskins again. This time it will be nice and I hope that I would be able to learn them codes all over again.

Well basically the past week has been sorta uh... I don't know what but my head's been on cloud-9 for some reason. People are getting sick everyday and Ryan has been coughing at night so often, I hope that I don't get sick, I gotta study for O's!!! And the mid year of course and the pre-lims are very important.

I wanted to make this a really long entry but unfortunately there's a rat bugging me to let him use the computer when he already did like this morning to lunch time and then from 2.30 to 4.30...

see ya later peps.

2007-01-30T01:47:00.000-08:00

Yes people, this song is so touching I cried when I watched the video on MTV. Hurt by Christina Aguilera. Yup. The paragraphing of my entries are so bad, I need to do something but I don't know what! A math and E math are getting more and more challenging by the chapter. There was one question in the textbook that even my teacher couldn't do, but I figured out the first part and hopefully I'll figure out th rest before anyone does...

This entry is gonna be quite short compared to the last few I've been doing. Yups. Bye.

2007-01-28T00:25:00.000-08:00

Well I'm feeling super happy today, went to studio to practise my basics and all. Found out that I can't balance and dance on my two half inch heels anymore. And I also found out that it's all about my weight, yes it is. The F word here is FAT. Everyone was just encouraging me to come back and dance, with a partner of course. The only one I know who would dance with me is my brother! How sweet yes? Well not so sweet because he is a self-proclaimed "retired" dancer at the age of twelve and a half. He has been "retired" since he was ten. =P Lame much?

I also met Clarissa Khor my senior there! Found out a few days ago that she joined Dancesport in Ngee Ann Poly, and practising at S&G during practise night. I wish that I could go back and put in everything I've got into dancing again, BUT there's always the horrible O' s to think about. I have to start doing my twenty year series for mole concept all over again because I suck at it apparently. I have to have to get my act together fast! The handover of duties to the Sec 3s for Guides is just as important. I want to give my outmost best to them, tell them everything I've experienced during my office term as Patrol Leader and Patrol Second these past few years.

The Combined UG camp is in March this year! What a rush! There is just not enough time and I still have to do my NYAA Bronze which I have not completed. More staying back in school till late this year than last then, it is going to be a nightmare trying to score well for mid-year, pre-lims and the actual 'O's in between my committment and duties to Guides. I wonder how my seniors did it back then, they were really awesome at multi-tasking.

Hopefully all the stress that I am about to experience is going to help me lose weight and get me out of HIP before pre-lims. Those who know that I have this blog, to those that saw me today and asked me to continue dancing, I thank you for the encouragement and support. I will not let you guys down, and I will not give up on doing best to do all these things this year. It's going to be a tough one, but hey, bring it on! I'm ready for the world, did you hear me?!

Bring on the stress and the piles of homework and test papers! I'm ready for ya! And of course, the ever so annoying little brother and his ability to annoy people exceptionally well.

I'm gonna do other stuff like sleep and play neopets and battle on. Bye!

2007-01-27T04:13:00.000-08:00

"Irreplaceable"

To the left
To the left

To the left
To the left
Mmmm to the left, to the left
Everything you own in the box to the left
In the closet, that's my stuff
Yes, if I bought it, baby, please don't touch (don't touch)

And keep talking that mess, thats fine
Could you walk and talk, at the same time?
And it's my name thats on that jag
So go move your bags, let me call you a cab

Standing in the front yard, telling me
How I'm such a fool, talking 'bout
How I'll never ever find a man like you
You got me twisted

You must not know 'bout me
You must not know 'bout me
I could have another you in a minute
Matter fact, he'll be here in a minute (baby)
You must not know 'bout me
You must not know 'bout me
I can have another you by tomorrow
So don't you ever for a second get to thinkin'
You're irreplaceable?

So go ahead and get gone
Call up that chick, and see if shes home
Oops I bet you thought, that I didn't know
What did you thinkI was putting you out for?
Because you was untrue
Rolling her around in the car that I bought you
Baby, drop them keys
Hurry up, before your taxi leaves
Standing in the front yard, telling me
How I'm such a fool, talking 'bout
How I'll never ever find a man like you
You got me twisted

You must not know 'bout me
You must not know 'bout me
I could have another you in a minute
Matter fact, he'll be here in a minute (baby)
You must not know 'bout me
You must not know 'bout me
I can have another you by tomorrow
So don't you ever for a second get to thinkin'
You're irreplaceable (irreplaceable)?

So since I'm not your everything (irreplaceable)
How about I'll be nothing (nothing)?
Nothing at all to you (nothing, nothing)
Baby I won't shed a tear for you (I won't shed a tear for you)
I won't lose a wink of sleep (a wink of sleep)
'Cause the truth of the matter is (truth is)
Replacing you is so easy

To the left, to the left.
To the left, to the left.
Mmmmm
To the left, to the left.
Everything you own in the box to the left
To the left, to the left.

Don't you ever for a second get to thinking
You're irreplaceable?
You must not know 'bout me
You must not know 'bout me
I can have another you in a minute
Matter fact, he'll be here in a minute (baby)
You must not know 'bout me
You must not know 'bout me
I can have another you by tomorrow
So don't you ever for a second get to thinkin'?

You must not know 'bout me (baby)
You must not know 'bout me
I could have another you in a minute
Matter fact, he'll be here in a minute
You can pack all your bags we're finished (you must not know 'bout me)
'Cause you made your bed now lay in it (you must not know 'bout me)
I could have another you by tomorrow
Don't you ever for a second get to thinkin'
You're irreplaceable?

Chariot

2007-01-26T12:27:00.000-08:00

Staring at a maple leaf
Leaning on the mother tree
I said to myself we all lost touch
Your favorite fruit is chocolate covered cherries
And seedless watermelon ohhhh
Nothing from the ground is good enough
Body rised
It puts over me

[Chorus:]
Oh chariot your golden wavesare walking down upon this face
Oh chariot I'm singing out loud
To guide me
Give me your...
Strength

Remember seeking moons rebirth
Rains made mirrors of the earth
The sun was just yellow energyIt is a living promise land
Even over fields of sand
Seasons fill my mind and
Cover me
From bringing back
More than a memory

[Chorus]

You'll be my vacation away from this place
You know what I want
Holding that cup,
It's pouring over the sides
Make me wanna spread my arms and fly

[Chorus]

Before He Cheats

2007-01-26T12:24:00.000-08:00

Right now he's probably slow dancing with a bleach blonde tramp,
and she's probably getting frisky...right now,
he's probably buying her some fruity little drink cause she can't shoot whiskey...

Right now, he's probably up behind her with a pool-stick, showing her how to shoot a combo...
And he don't know...

That I dug my key into the side of his pretty little souped up 4 wheel drive,
carved my name into his leather seats...
I took a Louisville slugger to both head lights,slashed a hole in all 4 tires...
Maybe next time he'll think before he cheats.

Right now, she's probably up singing somewhite-trash version of Shania karoke..
Right now, she's probably saying "I'm drunk"and he's a thinking that he's gonna get lucky,
Right now, he's probably dabbing on 3 dollars worth of that bathroom polo...
And he don't know...

That I dug my key into the side of his pretty little souped up 4 wheel drive,
carved my name into his leather seats,
I took a Louisville slugger to both head lights,slashed a hole in all 4 tires...
Maybe next time he'll think before he cheats.

I might saved a little trouble for the next girl,
Cause the next time that he cheats...
Oh, you know it won't be on me!

Ohh... not on me...

Cause I dug my key into the side of his pretty little souped up 4 wheel drive,
carved my name into his leather seats...
I took a Louisville slugger to both head lights,slashed a hole in all 4 tires...
Maybe next time he'll think before he cheats.
Ohh.. Maybe next time he'll think before he cheats...
Ohh... before he cheats...

Hurt

2007-01-26T12:14:00.000-08:00

Seems like it was yesterday when I saw your face
You told me how proud you were but I walked away
If only I knew what I know today

I would hold you in my arms
I would take the pain away
Thank you for all you've done
Forgive all your mistakes
There's nothing I wouldn't do
To hear your voice again
Sometimes I want to call you but I know you won't be there

I'm sorry for blaming you for everything I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself by hurting you
Some days I feel broke inside but I won't admit
Sometimes I just want to hide 'cause it's you I miss
You know it's so hard to say goodbye when it comes to this

Would you tell me I was wrong?
Would you help me understand?
Are you looking down upon me?
Are you proud of who I am?
There's nothing I wouldn't do
To have just one more chance
To look into your eyes and see you looking back

I'm sorry for blaming you for everything I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself
If I had just one more day, I would tell you how much that
I've missed you since you've been away

Oh, it's dangerous
It's so out of line to try to turn back time

I'm sorry for blaming you for everything I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself

By hurting you

2007-01-26T11:36:00.000-08:00

Yay! I've got a new layout for my bloggie!!!! I am super happy now! So nice!
Oh ya i forgot to mention, i got a new GAP blouse today, Mum bought it for herself but she thought that it didnt look too good on her, and now she gave it to me! Hehe...
Anyway my day was really bad. Like I said in my introduction, I walked to school in the rain, and I walked home from school in the rain.
And inbetween, it still rained! OMG when is this raining going to stop?! I long to go for a suntan when I go for my recess runs and when I'm going to play basketball after school to lose weight. Besides that, I was not feeling too well the whole day and couldn't absorb anything in Emath class.
Miss Ong already told me that I should listen and revise even though I know how to do the questions. BUT Thiviya kept bombarding me with her tuition differentiation questions, and so instead of listening, I had to help her do them and tell her her mistakes.
Now, I sort of regret not listening. I can't do anyone of the questions without choking at some point and I was never like that!
What is happening to me? I have got to get my act together, for the sake of doing so well in my o levels that every one would shower me with praise. But I gotta get my butt back into the game and start working my ass off!
After school I didn't really eat my lunch. I ate a packet of Hello Panda (which I shared with no less than 3 people), baked macaroni and drank a can of iced coffee. And that is one of the reasons why I'm still blogging at 3.45 in the morning.
During CCA we had physical training for half an hour, then discussed about whether to do PGA or not, inter patrol games and stuff. Someone even suggested asking my mum to teach them dancing. Well naturally because I can't teach for nuts!
Then went home and then went for dinner and bowling. Scored 62 and 84 points respectively, played two games.
Today was not my day, holes of the bowling ball was too small for my fingers and i kept throwing the ball into the 'longkang' and made it really clean.
So I've been in the computer ever since I got back at 12.30am, somewhere around there.
Somehow dreading tuition with cousin **** tomorrow, but I need it. I won't say the name, fraid I'll get caught.
My days are getting long and more tedious, my brains are getting smarter but more fried, my limbs are getting thinner but more tired, my head is getting clearer but I as though I'm in paradise. Oh someone help!

Haha... Here are the lyrics to Too Little, Too Late.

[Verse 1:]
Come with me
Stay the night
You say the words but boy it don't feel right
What do ya expect me to say (You know it's just too little too late)
You take my hand
And you say you've changed
But boy you know your begging don't fool me
Because to you it's just a game (You know it's just too little too late)

So let me on down
'Cause time has made me strong
I'm starting to move on
I'm gonna say this now
Your chance has come and gone
And you know...

[Chorus:]
It's just too little too late a little too wrong
And I can't wait
But you know all the right things to say (You know it's just too little too late)
You say you dream of my face
But you don't like me
You just like the chase
To be real
It doesn't matter anyway (You know it's just too little too late)

[Verse 2:]
I was young
And in love
I gave you everything
But it wasn't enough
And now you wanna communicate (You know it's just too little too late)
Go find someone else
In letting you go
I'm loving myself
You got a problem
But don't come asking me for help
'Cause you know...

Chorus

I can love with all of my heart, baby
I know I have so much to give (I have so much to give)
With a player like you I don't have a prayer
That's no way to live
Ohhhh... mmm nooo
It's just too little too late

Chorus x2

2007-01-26T10:46:00.000-08:00

finally its the end of another crappy week in school! i wish there was like 30 hours in a day, but unfortunately there's only 24.
so much to do, so much to say and so little time... oh my i'm gonna need a lot of coffee in the morning if i'm gonna stay up doing homework all night and its like 2.46am... yup saturday morning and i've been awake since 6.40 friday morning... ya too much caffine... i'm gonna go to starbucks later to get a mocha latte or something to keep awake until all my tuitions are over. speaking of which, i feel like i'm wasting my time on stupid things like watching tv and using the laptop. but, there are benefits too. now i can do my work AND send it to my teachers. THANK GOD!!!

i'm gonna change my blogskin now... will do another entry when i'm finished and i'm gonna do my homework after that...

i can't help but smile......

2007-01-23T09:22:00.000-08:00

i just realized that i can't help but smile when i think of wey keen. don't ask why but understand that i had a major crush on him that didnt work out... yups and the thing is......:
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i once said that i'll always have a special place in my heart for him even if i found someone new...
now how sweet can i be? those were the days when i was stupidly in love with... uh too much said. well i wonder if anyone really reads my blog. if not i'll just let all my heart out so that people will know how much of a softie i really am...

i'm getting into the dance fever AGAIN.. i said that i'll go back to dance but look at me! studying so hard for o' levels just so that i can continue in pursuing my dream! i wanna perform and dance my heart out... whatever i feel i wanna just let it go through dancing and expressions and i wanna keep learning whatever it is that will make me a better dancer and a better person.. someone help me! besides telling me that i gotta lose weight before anyone can partner me.. sheesh.. but im keeping my weight under control... hopefully lose like all the extra weight i gained over the years.. i gotta keep at it and don't give up..

just like Josh Groban, i perform best when i feel like there's nothing left in the world but dance and he makes music best when he feels as if music is all he's got.. ya know? and i am a hopeless romantic, i am the one who would let you snuggle up in a cold day... i am a softie ya know? become soft over the years in secondary school... so i gotta be tough again like Christina Aguilera making a come back after 4 years of missing in action kind thing...

oh yea back to wey keen. the thing is that we are like best friends. you know the Addie Singer and Jake Bahari kinda buddies and best friends for years but never knew what the other party was thinking of? ya except that i know that he doesnt like me in that kinda way, he's got someone new... well not THAT new but he already has someone and i'll be happy for him...

so i'll be like Addie and write a song about wey keen whenever i think of him... like i have that kind of time and space in my notebook... anyways i have been inspired by Donyelle from So You Think You Can Dance 2 to continue to dream and make them realities... i've got so much to do and so little time.. i hope i would shrink back to my normal size and weight of 51kg by the o's if not i won't be able to fit into my prom dress... shoot!!!!!!!!!!! AAARRRRGGGHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!! ok the pressure is getting to me now!!!!!!!! my new aim!!! lose 1kg in a week!!!!!!!!! do skipping!!!!!!

those of you who are reading this, please dont make fun of me... it'll make my life so much easier to live when no one knows...

we'll carry on

2006-12-02T21:04:00.000-08:00

well i went to Sabrina jie jie's wedding last night. it went okay as i talked to the rest of my family... one of my uncles actually looked like my dad, my natural father that is... anyway, my nieces and nephew were super high last night! running around the place like little tornados!
i didnt know that danielle like spinning around in circles! and also, i didnt know that caleb could break dance! haha it was so funny the lot of them!

well went for A maths tuition this morning, registered and stuff... we've started on a new topic called diffrentiation which has six parts of it... we only covered a quater of part one... so ya lots of work to do until school reopens and i have to resit for that dreaded end of year a math paper again! is if doing it once wasn't bad enough! doing the 2 and a half hour paper on boxing day, day after christmas... yups...

i'm going to KL on the 15th of December and i just got back from Malacca on Thursday night at like past midnight with my grandmother... oh by th way, Ren Fu nicknamed his daughter Le Le, which means happiness... so he's asking his audience on his variety show Wan Quan Yu Le for ideas on the actual name to give the baby. And they said that she has her father's nose! aww so cute!!!!!! hahaha...

i think that it's time to move on with my life... away from the childish ways and into the mature ways of a young adult... ya right! i wanna go back to dance after o levels... hopefully i'll lose enough weight by then... yup... gotta get moving!

i've got a testimonial to complete for a friend. see ya!

2006-11-19T21:35:00.000-08:00

hey all...
holiday's going fine but still have to do CIP stuff... will get to it as soon as i finish blogging.
i dont know what to say to nicole when she comes to me with problems at her workplace. i mean she chose to work there and she's like having a hard time and i'm just like laughing everything off like an idiot i didnt know i was until now.

some people might think that i'm a good person but the thing is i just dont know any other way to live. its hard to lead a easy life and its harder to live a life that is full of challenges. but that's the way it is, what do you know?

i have to go back to school to paint my cca banner tomorrow... while using the computer.. hehe..
there is this person who keeps getting in our way of completing the banner. someone who has unfortunately good intentions so i cant say anything about that person but keeps like causing trouble when that person wants to help out. whoo now that i've got that off my chest...

oh ya i forgot to tell the whole wide world:

renfu is a father!!!!!!

the baby was born last night i think? ya early delivery...
now that i've told the whole world, i can say that i am sad because he's no longer available (boo hoo!!! sob sobs...) and that i'm happy for them! very much and if he loves her and she loves him, hey what the heck? get married! haha... ok that wasnt funny.. bad joke.
well got to get cracking on the cip and finish it up by today... sayanora!

2006-11-03T06:31:00.000-08:00

whatever post that i've writting or going to write is being read by every one in the macdonalds at east coast becaused it is like opened for all to see...
people are complaining ans stuff about me mostly and its like oh crap... gotta sign out as this is no longer private..

bored to death

2006-11-02T23:51:00.000-08:00

have you heard of a cause of death called Died of Boredom?
well i might be experiencing it now... i'm super bored! been reading lord of the rings triology but its not the same as real fun!
what did i use to do during the holidays?
-camps
-work
-friend's house
-dance
-shopping
but now i do not have any camps to go to, cant go to no one's house, i'm not dancing anymore, cant go shopping as i'm all outta cash and i cant find work and i've got homework!

absolutely hate homeowork! AAAAHHHHRRRRRRGGGGGHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!
totally pissing me off with pile of homework!!!!
i dont seem like the funny Shina anymore.
i dont seem like the wacky interesting girl that my friends knew back in primary school...
i wonder what changed me... urgh! i hate it!
i hate my personality now! i hate myself ! the way i am and shit... no one's ever gonna set me straight...
i dont feel the same way as myself now... i just dont and i dont know why the hell not!

help me.... hey check out MCR's Welcome to The Black Parade:

When I was a young boy,
My father took me into the city
To see a marching band.

He said, "Son when you grow up,
would you be the saviour of the broken,
the beaten and the damned?"
He said "Will you defeat them,
your demons, and all the non believers,
the plans that they have made?"
"Because one day I'll leave you
,A phantom to lead you in the summer,
To join The Black Parade."

When I was a young boy,
My father took me into the city
To see a marching band.
He said, "Son when you grow up,
would you be the saviour of the broken,
the beaten and the damned?"

Sometimes I get the feeling she's watching over me.
And other times I feel like I should go.
And through it all, the rise and fall, the bodies in the streets.
And when you're gone we want you all to know.

We'll carry on,
We'll carry on
And though you're dead and gone believe me
Your memory will carry on
We'll carry on
And in my heart I can't contain it
The anthem won't explain it.

A world that sends you reeling from decimated dreams
Your misery and hate will kill us all.
So paint it black and take it back
Let's shout it loud and clear
Defiant to the end we hear the call

To carry on
We'll carry on
And though you're dead and gone believe me
Your memory will carry on
We'll carry on
And though you're broken and defeated
Your weary widow marches

On and on we carry through the fears
Ooh oh ohhhh
Disappointed faces of your peers
Ooh oh ohhhh
Take a look at me cause I could not care at all

Do or die, you'll never make me
Because the world will never take my heart
Go and try, you'll never break me
We want it all, we wanna play this part
I won't explain or say I'm sorry
I'm unashamed, I'm gonna show my scar
Give a cheer for all the broken
Listen here, because it's who we are
I'm just a man, I'm not a hero
Just a boy, who had to sing this song
Just a man, I'm not a hero
I! don't! care!

We'll carry on
We'll carry on
And though you're dead and gone believe me
Your memory will carry on
We'll carry on
And though you're broken and defeated
Your weary widow marches on

Do or die, you'll never make me

ecause the world will never take my heart

Go and try, you'll never break me

We want it all, we wanna play this part (We'll carry on)

Do or die, you'll never make me (We'll carry on)

Because the world will never take my heart (We'll carry on)

Go and try, you'll never break me (We'll carry)

We want it all, we wanna play this part (We'll carry on)

exam jitters

2006-10-09T03:00:00.000-07:00

well i've got the exam jitters... hate it but ya it comes and it goes... hopefully soon...
recently i've been told that i look like i like a girl from class but ask yourself how can it be when i'm straight? ya thats right...im straight and that isnt so hard to notice right?
im crazy about simple plan and recently even chinese boybands!
ok i wont pursue the matter further.
gotta go! bye...

no more rumours or conspiracies about me liking a girl!

2006-10-03T02:20:00.000-07:00

i have come to a conclusion that this computer sucks.
it has no sound
cant play music
and the system is slow fullstop.

no sound at all!!!

tomorrow is ss exam. should be able to do well considering i'm like practically a walking talking textbook. head is too full i need to empty that after all the exams.

i hate it when people dont keep their promises and when i remind them about it they say that i'm rude. like HELLO?! maybe they shoud check the dictionary what the word rude means. well this sucks. my life sucks like a straw, not enjoying it one bit.

will blog after exams. a real blog not like this penny for your thoughts entry.

bye

2006-08-18T07:18:00.000-07:00

well i think i helped to solve my mum's computer problem.. i rock
anyway had guides today and i did footdrill.. yeah i still got it!
going for CIP tmr with my class plus going to Chinatown after that... gonna be real fun and oh yeah what kind of parents forget to give their child allowence huh? anyway i gotta scoot before the rents find out that i fixed the comp cause they wont give me credit anyway...
bye!

2006-08-13T03:07:00.000-07:00

another successful break in.
anyway wanna make this quick before the rents come back and catch me red handed.
went for tution in the morning, then went for lunch with my step dad's mum, aunty claire, uncle steven, keith... ya at orchard den rushed back home at 3.10 for tuition with sean kor kor at 3.30pm...

finished tuition and now i'm just blogging here... oh ya i almost forgot one thing:

I GOT BOOKED FOUR TIMES FOR NOT MAKING UP FOR THE RECESS RUNS I MISSED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ok now i feel much better. hopefully i dont accumilate to a beta record... it'll be bad for my uh... wad'ya call that? i dunno well heck... still got lots of homework to do i guess.... and the heritage badge is going to the dogs... Mavis and Yvonne ditched me on tues when we were supposed to go to my house to do the badge...

fuck.

anyway those reading do not mention me scolding vlgarities ok? it just sucks when you get found out.
bye!

2006-08-04T00:47:00.000-07:00

hey guys! broke in again! haha feel so high... anyway still waiting for Jude to call me back about doing up the comp in my room and stealing some internet connection with this box thingy.. will talk about it when i see him.. ya..

so today went to bring my brother's clothes to his tuition center at like 10.10 in the morning... then went to compass to meet kendra loh to pass her my spare phone.. yea hers got confiscated.. dont wanna talk about it... to horrible for any student to take... shan't torture you all...

so anyway been at home all day... haven't bathed.... i know yuck right? but i love this Germany jersey i bought from China... Can't take it off ya know? haha i love it too much.... anway was watching Titanic vcd until the stupid vcd player cannot read the second disc! haiz... now i think i gotta just laze around in my room although i got stuff to do like homework... haha

i'm just slacking off all day and night... you know when i wanna put in the effort to really do something, my mum doesnt seem to support me just because she thinks its a waste of time and energy... shity lah... what kind of life am i living in man? i know, one that sucks...

however i'm one lucky asshole as compared to those who are out there... no family no money no school and no place to live in... well then thank the heavens i've got a mother who doesnt cheer me on but gives me everything else like water and food and clothes... oh shit i hope she doesnt come back soon...

bye!

2006-08-03T07:38:00.000-07:00

yo guys!
yeah i'm like sneaking in my mum's room to use the comp every now and then.. only dont tell her! Jude is gonna get my comp fixed up soon. yea he's a guy friend and we havent seen each other in a really long time so im really looking forward to seeing him... ya and only as a friend although i used to like him but ya know infatuation... hehe

so i gotta just do like short entries every now and then but if i get the chance, my entries will be super long ones ya? haha...

2006-07-30T08:58:00.000-07:00

Hi all! i'm having fun with my new blog! yay! but this is only temporary. sad to say ya the rest of the time i gotta use the skool's comp cause my mum's not in town until the tomorrow so i'll just do my homework at two in the morning... hehe... oh you guys really gotta like give me your links so i can link you all at one time ya? tag me baby!

2006-07-30T08:03:00.000-07:00

Well how do you like my new blog? yeah i'm a big 5566 freak right now. cant blame a girl who's crazy about boyband right? yeah i've passed my hardcore rock chick stage. its nice to be so attracted to ren fu. yup... chat later... doing up my blog so it doesn't look so ordinary. bye!

ok so i need everyone's links again so that i can link the whole lot of you k? be quick!