bored to death

have you heard of a cause of death called Died of Boredom?
well i might be experiencing it now... i'm super bored! been reading lord of the rings triology but its not the same as real fun!
what did i use to do during the holidays?
-camps
-work
-friend's house
-dance
-shopping
but now i do not have any camps to go to, cant go to no one's house, i'm not dancing anymore, cant go shopping as i'm all outta cash and i cant find work and i've got homework!

absolutely hate homeowork! AAAAHHHHRRRRRRGGGGGHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!
totally pissing me off with pile of homework!!!!
i dont seem like the funny Shina anymore.
i dont seem like the wacky interesting girl that my friends knew back in primary school...
i wonder what changed me... urgh! i hate it!
i hate my personality now! i hate myself ! the way i am and shit... no one's ever gonna set me straight...
i dont feel the same way as myself now... i just dont and i dont know why the hell not!

help me.... hey check out MCR's Welcome to The Black Parade:

When I was a young boy,
My father took me into the city
To see a marching band.

He said, "Son when you grow up,
would you be the saviour of the broken,
the beaten and the damned?"
He said "Will you defeat them,
your demons, and all the non believers,
the plans that they have made?"
"Because one day I'll leave you
,A phantom to lead you in the summer,
To join The Black Parade."

When I was a young boy,
My father took me into the city
To see a marching band.
He said, "Son when you grow up,
would you be the saviour of the broken,
the beaten and the damned?"

Sometimes I get the feeling she's watching over me.
And other times I feel like I should go.
And through it all, the rise and fall, the bodies in the streets.
And when you're gone we want you all to know.

We'll carry on,
We'll carry on
And though you're dead and gone believe me
Your memory will carry on
We'll carry on
And in my heart I can't contain it
The anthem won't explain it.

A world that sends you reeling from decimated dreams
Your misery and hate will kill us all.
So paint it black and take it back
Let's shout it loud and clear
Defiant to the end we hear the call

To carry on
We'll carry on
And though you're dead and gone believe me
Your memory will carry on
We'll carry on
And though you're broken and defeated
Your weary widow marches

On and on we carry through the fears
Ooh oh ohhhh
Disappointed faces of your peers
Ooh oh ohhhh
Take a look at me cause I could not care at all

Do or die, you'll never make me
Because the world will never take my heart
Go and try, you'll never break me
We want it all, we wanna play this part
I won't explain or say I'm sorry
I'm unashamed, I'm gonna show my scar
Give a cheer for all the broken
Listen here, because it's who we are
I'm just a man, I'm not a hero
Just a boy, who had to sing this song
Just a man, I'm not a hero
I! don't! care!

We'll carry on
We'll carry on
And though you're dead and gone believe me
Your memory will carry on
We'll carry on
And though you're broken and defeated
Your weary widow marches on

Do or die, you'll never make me

ecause the world will never take my heart

Go and try, you'll never break me

We want it all, we wanna play this part (We'll carry on)

Do or die, you'll never make me (We'll carry on)

Because the world will never take my heart (We'll carry on)

Go and try, you'll never break me (We'll carry)

We want it all, we wanna play this part (We'll carry on)