the past few days have been going so fast! i can't believe its monday tomorrow already! aww there goes another weekend and we inch another week closer to the o levels and mid year and prelims... whaddahell?

here's my entry for friday and yesterday:

Friday 23 March 2007:
Had guides till 6.40pm, couldn't meet up with bro in the end
Went to Swensen's at Comapass with Mum and Dad and bro for dinner
went home, mapled until like three in the morning

Yesterday, Saturday 24 March 2007:
Slept at 3.30am woke up at 8am to do homework
went for Street Jazz and Hip Hop
Did lyrical Jazz today, instructor Evergreen not gonna teach the next season! sob!
she's moving to the other side of the island!
the lyrical Jazz song was Josh Groban's So She Dances
its so beautiful! the routine was also challenging, but i got it in the end!
then rushed home for tuition with Sean Kor Kor until like 5pm
the rushed like hell for Mr Ng's extra lesson
ate my bee hoon on the way, imagine me walking and eating a container of bee hoon!
finished at 6.55pm, supposed to be 7pm but im not really complaining, so tired!
then at 8pm, went to eat dinner with family without Grandma at the coffee shop behind Sengkang Sec
came back and maple again until midnight

End of entry

so i woke up at 7.45am this morning and went for tuition at 9am-10.30am
after tuition I walked around with Wei Ting
then I went home to have lunch, mee siam from AMK damn nice!
after that we packed to go to SAFRA
before that met up with Uncle Steven, Aunty Claire and Keith and my Grandma from my step-dad's side
they were eating japnese food but i was still stuffed with mee siam so i ordered lime juice
that lime juice clear the last of the phlegm in my throat, thank God
then went to SAFRA, did homework and the dance studio there while my parents practised.
managed to finish the important ones like chemistry and a maths
mapled again at the cyber cafe/arcade for an hour
left for queensway shopping centre,
bro and i had dinner at mac's while parents went around looking for some stuff they wanted to buy
then we drove home after mum stopped my a coffee shop to buy HER and Dad's dinner.
and now i'm blogging!

yay, whatever. im just feeling really lame today.
oh ya i sat on the swing at the playground at SAFRA, it was the most relaxed time i had in weeks.

wells i havent been doing my homework ya i'm a bad girl ooohh...
i just dont have the habit anymore? ya
but i do try very very hard to do them.... yes i do
haha
anyway been really tired and stuff, didnt go for recess run today as i didnt bring my stuff cause both t shirts are in the washer and still wet... ya thats my excuse and i gotta make up tomorrow and stuff so ya...

Been writing a lot of Westlife lyrics in my new notebook, dunno whats up with that but i feel that their music and their voices really lift my spirit and they have inspired me since i was a little kid, since i was 8 of 9? Yups and i've grown up listening to their songs. But that doesn't been i didnt listen to anything else but them. i grew up listening to the Spice Girls, Westlife, Backstreet Boys, A1, some of the love songs that are on Westlife's Love Album. Songs like All Or Nothing originally by O-town, You Light Up My Life, All Out Of Love by Air Supply and stuff... Yups... But back then i couldnt remember the lyrics to the love songs as i was really really young like maybe i was 3 when i heard all these oldies? yups... but i think Westlife is the only band that I've followed since they made their big break in 2000? That's the year when i found out about them and A1 so a little bit of conflict between them there... i think that Westlife is the best band around now and forever. They have always been really great, whether it was music or being ordinary people. They are humble, they do not have big egos like other bands, they are really down to earth people and that's what i love about them.

Total Eclipse of The Heart


Turnaround, every now and then I get a little bit lonely and you're never coming
round
Turnaround, every now and then I get a little bit tired of listening to the
sound of my tears
Turnaround, every now and then I get a little bit nervous that the best of all
the years have gone by
Turnaround, every now and then I get a little bit terrified and then I see the
look in your eyes
Turnaround bright eyes, every now and then I fall apart
Turnaround bright eyes, every now and then I fall apart


And I need you now tonight
And I need you more than ever
And if you'll only hold me tight
We'll be holding on forever
And we'll only be making it right
Cause we'll never be wrong together
We can take it to the end of the line
Your love is like a shadow on me all of the time (all of the time)
I don't know what to do and I'm always in the dark
We're living in a powder keg and giving off sparks
I really need you tonight
Forever's gonna start tonight
Forever's gonna start tonight

Once upon a time I was falling in love
But now I'm only falling apart
There's nothing I can do
A total eclipse of the heart
Once upon a time there was light in my life
But now there's only love in the dark
Nothing I can do
A total eclipse of the heart

Turnaround, every now and then I get a little bit restless and I dream of
something wild
Turnaround, every now and then I get a little bit helpless and I'm lying like a
child in your arms
Turnaround, every now and then I get a little bit angry and I know I've got to
get out and cry
Turnaround, every now and then I get a little bit terrified but then I see the
look in you eyes
Turnaround bright eyes, every now and then I fall apart
Turnaround bright eyes, every now and then I fall apart

And I need you now tonight
And I need you more than ever
And if you'll only hold me tight
We'll be holding on forever
And we'll only be making it right
Cause we'll never be wrong together
We can take it to the end of the line
Your love is like a shadow on me all of the time (all of the time)
I don't know what to do and I'm always in the dark
We're living in a powder keg and giving off sparks
I really need you tonight
Forever's gonna start tonight
Forever's gonna start tonight

Once upon a time I was falling in love
But now I'm only falling apart
There's nothing I can do
A total eclipse of the heart

A total eclipse of the heart
A total eclipse of the heart
A total eclipse of the heart
A total eclipse of the heart

so i guess the new guiders are not that bad after all ya i have to have to admit it lah i'm guilty of judging a book by its cover and i'm sorry for it ya i'm sorry i bitched about them they're not so bad after all i just hate the way the scold us yups anyway, midyear is like the end of next month and im slacking away like blogging here and mapling and watching youtube but ya i'll pick up the slack soon enough

so its like 2.45am and i'm blogging. can't seem to sleep after that long afternoon nap i took until 8.30. got up for tuition and stuff, i was quite impressed with myself though, hehe.

school was fine today. no homework, i only need to go through my social studies powerpoint slides so that i can pass the test on wednesday, technically it would be tomorrow but let's assume that its still Monday k? ya its monday night and tuesday morning.

been mapling quite a bit these days. just leveled up by killing angry ribbon pigs for their ribbons so that i can complete the quest and get exp points. my brother's been mapling a hell lot more than me because he's got no o levels and i do. holy shit next month is mid year already! haven't started studying YET and i dont know when i'll start. i dont feel as motivated as last year and i don't know why. but i gotta start soon, its THE big exam of my life and ya, its gonna suck bad if it ends bad this year. hopefully i'll go out with a big bang in my cca. make myself memoriable to my sec ones so that they remember me for life. hehe.

i'm still head over heels in love with westlife! i cant type properly when i'm thinking of them! haha. i still love love love love love love love love love love love love Mark Feehily!!!!! i dont care what he is i just looooove him sooo much ! love his voice and everything! ahh i'm going nuts!!!!

ya well didnt pick chong aik up today as i was sleeping so peacefully. Ha! the little bugger has to go to school like everyone else tomorrow! hope he manages to stay awake during class! haha! speaking of which, i need to remember to bring my chemistry text instead of physics tomorrow, i get totally mixed up somehow and i dont know why. oh and i need to start running recess runs, dammit. its sooooo boring! i'd rather you put me next to the coke machine, at least i can amuse myself by pressing the buttons.

ah wells, life like this and i'm stuck in westlife and i'm totally nuts about them and i need some one to snap me out of it!

just finished doing a post on that blog dedicated to cheering Chong Aik on
some people may think that i'm crazy for him because that blog was for him and stuff
but it'll just be damn awkward and weird if we ever got together
i mean we're best buddies and i hope he doesnt read this!
i mean if you are reading this Chong Aik, i think you'll think the same way
hey we're like long time friends since we were nine or ten
ok that sounded like a Westlife song

we had joy we had fun, we had seasons in the sun
but the wine and the song like the seasons have all gone........

okok cheesy old me.
i can't help it if im like hooked onto love songs right?
which sixteen year old girl wouldn't?

maybe i was too harsh on the last entry that i did
i mean as in my words were too harsh
not on anyone but ya you know what i mean?
okok so im in the wrong and i am sorry
but its like sometimes i just dont wanna tell anyone where im going
its just that i wanna be alone kinda thing
and if i'm like somewhere in a shopping mall
there'll be a call from home asking me to buy milk or bread or both
so ya sometimes i just wanna be alone
just to reflect and i dont want anyone to know about it
because that'll just distract me from my thoughts
this may seem as an invalid reason, but hey
that is just how i see it.
if anyone thinks that i'm in the wrong, please tell me
i need to know from my mistakes
also, i need to learn to be a better person for tomorrow

wow i can actually say all these things
i'm amazed myself
i can write better than i can speak
oh ya there's this hilarious vid clip on youtube
type in "RK House" and you'll be laughing your pants off
guaranteed to make you nuts.
ok enough with the nuts, or i'll be a nutcase by the end of this entry

so there's COH tomorrow
and once again
the timing has been changed to fit
the guider's schedule
i mean Miss Lim and Miss Yeo
never called us back for meetings during any of our term breaks
the cca is going to the dogs, honestly
so it has been changed from 2pm to 3pm
all the way until 4.30pm
like we got nothing better to do than come back to school
to watch some *****es pmsing
some of you will know what im saying
let your imagination go wild here...
ya

well i gotta go now, my bro is like so wanting to use the comp
(just acting bimbo)
yucks i hate bimbos, they're all stupid. duh!

btw, Westlife and Avril Lavigne are totally rocking my world right now!

I know when he's been on your mind That distant look is in your eyes I thought with time you'd realize it's over, over It's not the way I choose to live Bit something somewhere's gotta give As sharing in this relationship gets older, older You know I'd fight for you but how could I fight someone who isn't even there I've had the rest of you now I want the best of you I don't care if that's not fair Cuz I want it all Or nothing at all There's nowhere left to fall When you reach the bottom it's now or never Is it all Or are we just friends Is this how it ends With a simple telephone call You leave me here with nothing at all There are time it seems to me I'm sharing you with memories I feel it in my heart but I don't show it, show it Then there's times you look at me As though I'm all that you cN see Those times I don't believe it's right I know it, know it Don't make me promises baby you never did know how to keep them well I had the rest of you now I want the best of you it's time to show and tell Cuz I want it all Or nothing at all There's nowhere left to fall When you reach the bottom it's now or never Is it all Or are we just friends Is this how it ends With a simple telephone call You leave me here with nothing at all Cuz you and I Could lose it all if you've got no more room No more inside for me in your life Cuz I want it all Or Nothing at all There's nowhere left to fall It's now or never Is it all Or nothing at all When you reach the bottom it's now or never Is it all Or are we just friends Is this how it ends With a simple telephone call You leave me here with nothing Cuz you and I Could lose it all if you've got no more room No more inside for me in your life Cuz I want it all Or nothing at all There's nowhere left to fall It's now or never Is it all Or nothing at all When you reach the bottom it's now or never Is it all Or are we just friends Is this how it ends With a simple telephone call You leave me here with nothing at all

its like bloody 4am and im blogging. i must be going mad. well i've been an unappreciative and a total bitch to my mum. i only told her that i was gonna send chong aik off when i got there. she got totally pissed cause i didnt tell her beforehand and i probably should have although it was like bloody late i didnt get kidnapped i didnt get raped i didnt get robbed i told my grandma before i left and my mum just called me stupid caused i just could not get the concept of telling her beforehand and like i postponed tuition that night because i had like 4 hours of tuition that idiot afternoon and she said that i postponed tuition because i wanted to send chong aik off like f**king hell i didnt mean it that way so f**k she would've let me go and she made it sound that i didnt appreciate her and i treated her like a fool i mean like i feel like shit when im the last one to know about the bloody plans for the weekends like i didnt feel important when she told me that i was going to watch the competition alone like f**k its alright to shout at me when i tell her something after i done it but i gotta get my heart broken when she tells me that i'll be alone when i'd bloody like to spend the night watching the competition with her f**k its alright not to tell me the reason why she wasnt going to watch but its not f**king alright for me to send a friend off at the airport without tellin her the worst thing is that i've lost the motivation to study cause she called me stupid and maybe i am cause she thinks that i have no moral values well maybe she's right lah whatever im doing maybe just a show i dont know if im dead or if im alive i dont know if i have soul its like ive lost all sense of myself f**k it i think that its common sense that you would want to send a friend off at the airport if they're going to compete overseas like i dont have feelings i hated stuffing all the bloody chicken rice and soup and everything down my throat at dinner lucky she wasnt there so what if you cooked dinner for me grandma cooks dinner for us most of the time and she cleans the house most of the time and she buys us food most of the time f**k i hate this yes shina has no moral values shina is stupid cause she doesnt get the concept of telling her mum that she's going out beforehand fine fine fine fine fine fine like f**k it whatever

here i am doing another entry just before its my turn to have chinese tuition.
um... today was pretty fruitful.
i went to school for extra lessons even though it was term break, painted part of my patrol flag, helped paint the banner for campfire that is happening at the end of the month and yeah, that's about it pretty much.
came home at six thirty, around there i think.
oh yeah i gotta tell you guys about the IDSF competition i went to watch last night.
Chong Aik was competiting so I HAD to watch it. Even though my step dad was a total party pooper and my mum couldn't watch it, she gave me one of the tickets that Aunty Meethoo reserved for her so that i could watch with Marion Jie Jie.
It has been so long since I've actually seen like everyone from studio. Those who just joined when I stopped are still there, those who weren't there came back and ya know, be there. Haha.
Talked to Aunty Gladys and Uncle Shawn. I think that they are nice people, I mean they have always been so patient with me. When I was still dancing, they were so every patient to teach me until I got the steps and timings correct. They put in extra effort to train me, at least that is how I feel about them.
Other than my mum, Uncle Shawn and Aunty Gladys have unknowingly groomed me to be who I am today. Only now that I realized that they're teachings, be it dancing or just talking to us, was to equip me with most of the life skills that I have today. I cannot thank them enough. Uncle Shawn was so nice, he asked about mum, so did Aunty Gladys, they both asked if she was happy, they both sent their best regards to her.
I didn't know that they cared about (yes I'm a little slow in details) for her even after she had left.

Saw a lot of old friends, Elrond, Peter, Gin Gin, Priscilla, Kelvin, Rossane, of course Chong Aik and Riane, saw Aunty Meethoo and Uncle Michael (duh!), Clarissa my senior and Isabelle Tay (i finally caught hold of her after 9.30pm!). I think that's about all. There may be a few faces that I can't put names to but ya. Almost everyone asked about Mum and how she was doing and stuff. It was a great thing to spent my Sunday night on. Other than the fact that I forgot to do my work, it was great. I shouted myself hoarse, because my throat hurts today. I have slight cough from the shouting and a sore throat. And I STILL ate macs today. I gotta stop that bad habit of fast food.

Well I think that I should be going now. Not really up to having tuition today, don't feel like talking much, throat's really dry. LIM CHONG AIK YOU OWE ME ONE!!!! Ya, I was his cheerleading squad last night, shouted as loud as I could. =D I am such a good friend. Hehe. No, seriously, he owes me one. Better get a little something for me when you go to Japan tomorrow eh?

Haha. See ya.

talking cock in parliament

We Live In Singapura

Sang Nila, Utama
Saw a lion, alamak
Name the village Singapura, then run very far

Years later, ang mor came
Stamford Raffles was his name
Posed for statues very nice, we kenna colonize
(instru)

Singapura very strong
Big guns all, pointing wrong
Japanese, came on bikes, invade us from our backside
War is over, ang mor back
Singaporeans no respect
Commies come, make a fuss,
Singapore independance!

CHORUS
I live in Singapura
It’s not perfect living
But at least it’s interesting
I live in Singapura
Though it’s kind of crazy
We win other country

David Marshall, Lim Yew Hock
National Anthem starts to rock
Yusof Ishak the big man, guess who’s PM?

Malaysia say, come join me
Two of us be same country
Then not happy, Then make PM cry

PM Lee lead country
Build jurong and HDB
Made the country clean and green, opposition cannot win
JB Jeya no more funds,
Chee Soon Juan won’t eat his buns
Lim How Doong, what a goon,
‘Don’t talk cock’ in parliament

CHORUS
I live in Singapura
It’s not perfect living
But at least it’s interesting
I live in Singapura
Though its kind of crazy
We win other country

Kick out from Malaysia Cup
Michael Faye pain in the butt
S-League, Tea Dancing,
Ah Bengs love Modern Talking
McDonalds Hello Kitty
Everyone drink Bubble tea
Crushing cockroach Margaret Chan,
James Lye is VR Man
(instru)

Reclaimation, Tuas Causeway
Malaysian water buay ho sei
Mahathir’s friend Datuk Anwar,
Mathathir says he’s chow Ah Qua
NDP, aunties rush
Everyone it’s fun to flush
Bubble gums are all banned, ask your friends buy from thailand

CHORUS
I live in Singapura
It’s not perfect living
But at least it’s interesting
I live in Singapura
Though its kind of crazy
We win other country

Driving car, not funny
Bid on cars with C-O-E
E-R-P, Road Tax, PARF until I want to barf
Why our locals have to pay?
Foreign talent are okay
Housing estate upgradeby contractors who go pok kai

IMF must follow
Want to protest, go indoors
L-R-T not so fast
Newater they laugh at us

I live in Singapura
It’s not perfect living
But at least it’s in-teresting
I live in Singapura
Though its kind of crazy
We win other country

Baby bonus, maid levy
Singtel Shares give out for free
Jack Neo, Kit Chan, sexy pastor Ho Yeow Sun
Beckham parties with models
Has affair but no one knows
S-league, go world cup, can come true if they don’t suck

Mahathir then Abdullah
Bar top dancing at the bars
Budget airlines start to pak
Stop speaking Singlish lah

Gay is okay says PM
SM Lee becomes MM
PM Lee the same name, here we go all over again.

WE LIVE IN SINGAPURA!