Yes people, this song is so touching I cried when I watched the video on MTV. Hurt by Christina Aguilera. Yup. The paragraphing of my entries are so bad, I need to do something but I don't know what! A math and E math are getting more and more challenging by the chapter. There was one question in the textbook that even my teacher couldn't do, but I figured out the first part and hopefully I'll figure out th rest before anyone does...

This entry is gonna be quite short compared to the last few I've been doing. Yups. Bye.

Well I'm feeling super happy today, went to studio to practise my basics and all. Found out that I can't balance and dance on my two half inch heels anymore. And I also found out that it's all about my weight, yes it is. The F word here is FAT. Everyone was just encouraging me to come back and dance, with a partner of course. The only one I know who would dance with me is my brother! How sweet yes? Well not so sweet because he is a self-proclaimed "retired" dancer at the age of twelve and a half. He has been "retired" since he was ten. =P Lame much?

I also met Clarissa Khor my senior there! Found out a few days ago that she joined Dancesport in Ngee Ann Poly, and practising at S&G during practise night. I wish that I could go back and put in everything I've got into dancing again, BUT there's always the horrible O' s to think about. I have to start doing my twenty year series for mole concept all over again because I suck at it apparently. I have to have to get my act together fast! The handover of duties to the Sec 3s for Guides is just as important. I want to give my outmost best to them, tell them everything I've experienced during my office term as Patrol Leader and Patrol Second these past few years.

The Combined UG camp is in March this year! What a rush! There is just not enough time and I still have to do my NYAA Bronze which I have not completed. More staying back in school till late this year than last then, it is going to be a nightmare trying to score well for mid-year, pre-lims and the actual 'O's in between my committment and duties to Guides. I wonder how my seniors did it back then, they were really awesome at multi-tasking.

Hopefully all the stress that I am about to experience is going to help me lose weight and get me out of HIP before pre-lims. Those who know that I have this blog, to those that saw me today and asked me to continue dancing, I thank you for the encouragement and support. I will not let you guys down, and I will not give up on doing best to do all these things this year. It's going to be a tough one, but hey, bring it on! I'm ready for the world, did you hear me?!

Bring on the stress and the piles of homework and test papers! I'm ready for ya! And of course, the ever so annoying little brother and his ability to annoy people exceptionally well.

I'm gonna do other stuff like sleep and play neopets and battle on. Bye!

"Irreplaceable"

To the left
To the left

To the left
To the left
Mmmm to the left, to the left
Everything you own in the box to the left
In the closet, that's my stuff
Yes, if I bought it, baby, please don't touch (don't touch)

And keep talking that mess, thats fine
Could you walk and talk, at the same time?
And it's my name thats on that jag
So go move your bags, let me call you a cab

Standing in the front yard, telling me
How I'm such a fool, talking 'bout
How I'll never ever find a man like you
You got me twisted

You must not know 'bout me
You must not know 'bout me
I could have another you in a minute
Matter fact, he'll be here in a minute (baby)
You must not know 'bout me
You must not know 'bout me
I can have another you by tomorrow
So don't you ever for a second get to thinkin'
You're irreplaceable?

So go ahead and get gone
Call up that chick, and see if shes home
Oops I bet you thought, that I didn't know
What did you thinkI was putting you out for?
Because you was untrue
Rolling her around in the car that I bought you
Baby, drop them keys
Hurry up, before your taxi leaves
Standing in the front yard, telling me
How I'm such a fool, talking 'bout
How I'll never ever find a man like you
You got me twisted

You must not know 'bout me
You must not know 'bout me
I could have another you in a minute
Matter fact, he'll be here in a minute (baby)
You must not know 'bout me
You must not know 'bout me
I can have another you by tomorrow
So don't you ever for a second get to thinkin'
You're irreplaceable (irreplaceable)?

So since I'm not your everything (irreplaceable)
How about I'll be nothing (nothing)?
Nothing at all to you (nothing, nothing)
Baby I won't shed a tear for you (I won't shed a tear for you)
I won't lose a wink of sleep (a wink of sleep)
'Cause the truth of the matter is (truth is)
Replacing you is so easy

To the left, to the left.
To the left, to the left.
Mmmmm
To the left, to the left.
Everything you own in the box to the left
To the left, to the left.

Don't you ever for a second get to thinking
You're irreplaceable?
You must not know 'bout me
You must not know 'bout me
I can have another you in a minute
Matter fact, he'll be here in a minute (baby)
You must not know 'bout me
You must not know 'bout me
I can have another you by tomorrow
So don't you ever for a second get to thinkin'?

You must not know 'bout me (baby)
You must not know 'bout me
I could have another you in a minute
Matter fact, he'll be here in a minute
You can pack all your bags we're finished (you must not know 'bout me)
'Cause you made your bed now lay in it (you must not know 'bout me)
I could have another you by tomorrow
Don't you ever for a second get to thinkin'
You're irreplaceable?

Chariot

Staring at a maple leaf
Leaning on the mother tree
I said to myself we all lost touch
Your favorite fruit is chocolate covered cherries
And seedless watermelon ohhhh
Nothing from the ground is good enough
Body rised
It puts over me

[Chorus:]
Oh chariot your golden wavesare walking down upon this face
Oh chariot I'm singing out loud
To guide me
Give me your...
Strength

Remember seeking moons rebirth
Rains made mirrors of the earth
The sun was just yellow energyIt is a living promise land
Even over fields of sand
Seasons fill my mind and
Cover me
From bringing back
More than a memory

[Chorus]

You'll be my vacation away from this place
You know what I want
Holding that cup,
It's pouring over the sides
Make me wanna spread my arms and fly

[Chorus]

Before He Cheats

Right now he's probably slow dancing with a bleach blonde tramp,
and she's probably getting frisky...right now,
he's probably buying her some fruity little drink cause she can't shoot whiskey...

Right now, he's probably up behind her with a pool-stick, showing her how to shoot a combo...
And he don't know...

That I dug my key into the side of his pretty little souped up 4 wheel drive,
carved my name into his leather seats...
I took a Louisville slugger to both head lights,slashed a hole in all 4 tires...
Maybe next time he'll think before he cheats.

Right now, she's probably up singing somewhite-trash version of Shania karoke..
Right now, she's probably saying "I'm drunk"and he's a thinking that he's gonna get lucky,
Right now, he's probably dabbing on 3 dollars worth of that bathroom polo...
And he don't know...

That I dug my key into the side of his pretty little souped up 4 wheel drive,
carved my name into his leather seats,
I took a Louisville slugger to both head lights,slashed a hole in all 4 tires...
Maybe next time he'll think before he cheats.

I might saved a little trouble for the next girl,
Cause the next time that he cheats...
Oh, you know it won't be on me!

Ohh... not on me...

Cause I dug my key into the side of his pretty little souped up 4 wheel drive,
carved my name into his leather seats...
I took a Louisville slugger to both head lights,slashed a hole in all 4 tires...
Maybe next time he'll think before he cheats.
Ohh.. Maybe next time he'll think before he cheats...
Ohh... before he cheats...

Hurt

Seems like it was yesterday when I saw your face
You told me how proud you were but I walked away
If only I knew what I know today

I would hold you in my arms
I would take the pain away
Thank you for all you've done
Forgive all your mistakes
There's nothing I wouldn't do
To hear your voice again
Sometimes I want to call you but I know you won't be there

I'm sorry for blaming you for everything I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself by hurting you
Some days I feel broke inside but I won't admit
Sometimes I just want to hide 'cause it's you I miss
You know it's so hard to say goodbye when it comes to this

Would you tell me I was wrong?
Would you help me understand?
Are you looking down upon me?
Are you proud of who I am?
There's nothing I wouldn't do
To have just one more chance
To look into your eyes and see you looking back

I'm sorry for blaming you for everything I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself
If I had just one more day, I would tell you how much that
I've missed you since you've been away

Oh, it's dangerous
It's so out of line to try to turn back time

I'm sorry for blaming you for everything I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself

By hurting you

Yay! I've got a new layout for my bloggie!!!! I am super happy now! So nice!
Oh ya i forgot to mention, i got a new GAP blouse today, Mum bought it for herself but she thought that it didnt look too good on her, and now she gave it to me! Hehe...
Anyway my day was really bad. Like I said in my introduction, I walked to school in the rain, and I walked home from school in the rain.
And inbetween, it still rained! OMG when is this raining going to stop?! I long to go for a suntan when I go for my recess runs and when I'm going to play basketball after school to lose weight. Besides that, I was not feeling too well the whole day and couldn't absorb anything in Emath class.
Miss Ong already told me that I should listen and revise even though I know how to do the questions. BUT Thiviya kept bombarding me with her tuition differentiation questions, and so instead of listening, I had to help her do them and tell her her mistakes.
Now, I sort of regret not listening. I can't do anyone of the questions without choking at some point and I was never like that!
What is happening to me? I have got to get my act together, for the sake of doing so well in my o levels that every one would shower me with praise. But I gotta get my butt back into the game and start working my ass off!
After school I didn't really eat my lunch. I ate a packet of Hello Panda (which I shared with no less than 3 people), baked macaroni and drank a can of iced coffee. And that is one of the reasons why I'm still blogging at 3.45 in the morning.
During CCA we had physical training for half an hour, then discussed about whether to do PGA or not, inter patrol games and stuff. Someone even suggested asking my mum to teach them dancing. Well naturally because I can't teach for nuts!
Then went home and then went for dinner and bowling. Scored 62 and 84 points respectively, played two games.
Today was not my day, holes of the bowling ball was too small for my fingers and i kept throwing the ball into the 'longkang' and made it really clean.
So I've been in the computer ever since I got back at 12.30am, somewhere around there.
Somehow dreading tuition with cousin **** tomorrow, but I need it. I won't say the name, fraid I'll get caught.
My days are getting long and more tedious, my brains are getting smarter but more fried, my limbs are getting thinner but more tired, my head is getting clearer but I as though I'm in paradise. Oh someone help!

Haha... Here are the lyrics to Too Little, Too Late.

[Verse 1:]
Come with me
Stay the night
You say the words but boy it don't feel right
What do ya expect me to say (You know it's just too little too late)
You take my hand
And you say you've changed
But boy you know your begging don't fool me
Because to you it's just a game (You know it's just too little too late)

So let me on down
'Cause time has made me strong
I'm starting to move on
I'm gonna say this now
Your chance has come and gone
And you know...

[Chorus:]
It's just too little too late a little too wrong
And I can't wait
But you know all the right things to say (You know it's just too little too late)
You say you dream of my face
But you don't like me
You just like the chase
To be real
It doesn't matter anyway (You know it's just too little too late)

[Verse 2:]
I was young
And in love
I gave you everything
But it wasn't enough
And now you wanna communicate (You know it's just too little too late)
Go find someone else
In letting you go
I'm loving myself
You got a problem
But don't come asking me for help
'Cause you know...

Chorus

I can love with all of my heart, baby
I know I have so much to give (I have so much to give)
With a player like you I don't have a prayer
That's no way to live
Ohhhh... mmm nooo
It's just too little too late

Chorus x2

finally its the end of another crappy week in school! i wish there was like 30 hours in a day, but unfortunately there's only 24.
so much to do, so much to say and so little time... oh my i'm gonna need a lot of coffee in the morning if i'm gonna stay up doing homework all night and its like 2.46am... yup saturday morning and i've been awake since 6.40 friday morning... ya too much caffine... i'm gonna go to starbucks later to get a mocha latte or something to keep awake until all my tuitions are over. speaking of which, i feel like i'm wasting my time on stupid things like watching tv and using the laptop. but, there are benefits too. now i can do my work AND send it to my teachers. THANK GOD!!!

i'm gonna change my blogskin now... will do another entry when i'm finished and i'm gonna do my homework after that...

i can't help but smile......

i just realized that i can't help but smile when i think of wey keen. don't ask why but understand that i had a major crush on him that didnt work out... yups and the thing is......:
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i once said that i'll always have a special place in my heart for him even if i found someone new...
now how sweet can i be? those were the days when i was stupidly in love with... uh too much said. well i wonder if anyone really reads my blog. if not i'll just let all my heart out so that people will know how much of a softie i really am...

i'm getting into the dance fever AGAIN.. i said that i'll go back to dance but look at me! studying so hard for o' levels just so that i can continue in pursuing my dream! i wanna perform and dance my heart out... whatever i feel i wanna just let it go through dancing and expressions and i wanna keep learning whatever it is that will make me a better dancer and a better person.. someone help me! besides telling me that i gotta lose weight before anyone can partner me.. sheesh.. but im keeping my weight under control... hopefully lose like all the extra weight i gained over the years.. i gotta keep at it and don't give up..

just like Josh Groban, i perform best when i feel like there's nothing left in the world but dance and he makes music best when he feels as if music is all he's got.. ya know? and i am a hopeless romantic, i am the one who would let you snuggle up in a cold day... i am a softie ya know? become soft over the years in secondary school... so i gotta be tough again like Christina Aguilera making a come back after 4 years of missing in action kind thing...

oh yea back to wey keen. the thing is that we are like best friends. you know the Addie Singer and Jake Bahari kinda buddies and best friends for years but never knew what the other party was thinking of? ya except that i know that he doesnt like me in that kinda way, he's got someone new... well not THAT new but he already has someone and i'll be happy for him...

so i'll be like Addie and write a song about wey keen whenever i think of him... like i have that kind of time and space in my notebook... anyways i have been inspired by Donyelle from So You Think You Can Dance 2 to continue to dream and make them realities... i've got so much to do and so little time.. i hope i would shrink back to my normal size and weight of 51kg by the o's if not i won't be able to fit into my prom dress... shoot!!!!!!!!!!! AAARRRRGGGHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!! ok the pressure is getting to me now!!!!!!!! my new aim!!! lose 1kg in a week!!!!!!!!! do skipping!!!!!!

those of you who are reading this, please dont make fun of me... it'll make my life so much easier to live when no one knows...